Rumors rumors rumors. First of all i'm not hiting on anybody ok. After wat happened last month, no way. Like in the song good charlote-dance floor anthem i dont wan be in luv. that is me now, If u think i'm hitting on people now, u people are so wrong this is me. I do wat i do, i know where is my limit and when to stop ok. So know me more then u know how i do so.
Pam, wat the hell was wrong with u, one second ur pissed with me then try to calm me and say u still merajuk. I tell u, u dont simply pissed me off or i will be ur worst nitemare. Think i wat, yes maybe i am soft, i care for ppl and many more. But hell no, if anyone pissed me off i tell u thats the end. Making it straight here so dont think i'm easy.
ONE more thing to all stupid annonymous ppl out there, why the hell u all so scared??? wat do u hav to lose if u tell me who u are, if ur not even related to me plz la, dont simply talk. Want to annonymous. specially that stranger telling me i'm not a man?? wTF WTF WTF??? u hide ur name for wat, ur the chicken dont even wan tell who u are scared is it.. come la
Waste my time being angry, anyway today. Pastry class, started off with stupid fight with pam, warn u arr pam then made breads creme puff choc paste.. Good la taste good XD
Edmond kesian kena accident. lucky din panic, first time liau. edmond jia you! then we went cc
i was killing and dying so..yeah ying and yang seimband lolz.
Ermmm got nth else to say, so yeah thats it.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Grrr
Monday, October 15, 2007
Sick and down
*cough cough cough* * achuu achuu achuu*
DAmn laa, i damn sick edi. Sigh
I found out something bout me. Even though i'm happy or something, i'm actually really sad. Sad that why this things is happening? cant i have a better life? I mean, i want a new phone i wan a laptop of my own, so i dont need to suffer with this crappy 3com wireless shit. Sometimes i wish i have lots of money, though i cant buy happiness i can buy stuff to make my self happy. Sigh , but god gave me a purpose to live this life, so i have to face everyday a new challenge with a big heart.
Somebody called my house? stupid la my maid dunno how to ask for name... now i finding for who called me, but dunno where to start. Sigh
Good charlote- dance floor anthem well i keep hearing this song, i think i memorize the lyrics edi, i really like it. I feel like thats the song of my current mood, current status. Sigh. * cough cough*
Simon happy Birthday! haha.
Emmm just ignore this part people. I got new pic of my self" syock sendiri moment" taken from Julian's phone lolz. ty Julian
Well thats all good nite. *achuuu*
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Memories~! and Ending of Feelings
Ok, where shall i start.
yesterday, i sms her. Asking is there a second chance for us to, maybe not now but in the future. She replied no there isn't.
Ok, this is my conclusion. I tried so hard, yet it has failed, i guess this last sms was my last try to see if there was any chances eventhough i really wanted her to say maybe only maybe that will ease my heart. But no it failed, so last night in aunt betty house I told my self each deep breath i let go represents the every memory from the very starting moment i fall in luv with her till the end of it. breath 1 is when i meet her before AIM,2 during aim we went out with darren and ian eat at sushi king. goes on to calvary youth field day,friday prayer meets, easter practise emmy lou's house when it was our first day of relationship, that nite , sundays, saturdays, I can remember everythin we ever done together since day 1. Like after this skit i perform as devil, we went to burger king then went practice. Till her klpac every wed we like meet in amcorp and i would buy her dinner at mcD. Till rach soon house many more. All this are so precious memory to me, i guess i let everything go last nite, even my love for her. Now i'm neutral just only left a big hole a big scar in my heart. It would heal but not going to be fast. Like just now, when i sat next to rach though i knew she came wearing white shirt, i din even looked at her. i know its like i dont care anymore. I guess its over, and i'm happy with it.
Okayy~~ too much about the past. now i'm all bout the future, so one last message to lee en if ur reading this, Dear erm, u be a good girl now and take care of ur self, u know i will be fine and i know u too so keep ur dreams high and i'm here if u need help ok^^
Now, yesterday i cook spaghetti, learn form college. ermm, i'm suppose to like go camp today but sry too malas hahaha. oh on the way back from church i heard this song, let me find it then i edit and post it up here.
Good Charlotte Dance Floor Anthem Lyrics
She’s going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
than he gave she’s looking for
He calls her up
He’s trippin on the phone now
He doesn’t want her out there
And alone now
He knows she’s movin it
Knows she’s using it
Now he’s losing it
She don’t care
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
to the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
He was always giving her attention
Looking hard to find the things she mentioned
He was dedicated
But most suckers hate it
That girl was fine
But she didn’t appreciate him
She calls him up
She’s tripping on the phone now
He had to get up
And he ain’t comin home now
He’s tryin to forget her
That’s how we come with him
When he first met her
When they first got together
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
to the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
To the beat (x3)
You got nothing to lose
Don’t be afraid to get down
We break up
It’s something that we do now
Everyone has got to do it sometime
It’s okay, let it go
Get out there and find someone
It’s too late to be trippin' on the phone here
Get off the wire
You know everything is good here
Stop what you’re doin'
You don’t wanna ruin
The chance that you got to
find a new one
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
to the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be alone
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Now you know what to do, so come on feelin' good
Friday, October 12, 2007
wat i upload today xD
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cZshSqyXmX8
Kinda dumb coz Uncle peter send this video to me...talkin about i-rack and i-ran lolz enjoy
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Lolz,doin this in college
Take a look at this stuffz:
lolz. Say it in a manner like ur sooo drawn towards it. Uh, yourr kiss are sooo erotic~ ur hugs ahh so warm your eyes just lights up a day. Your touch is heart waming, ur smell is exotic. Your smile is so encouraging. Your! love is just one of a kind. Lolz say it like ur dragging it or in a romantic date where u tell ur date: ur eyes are so shiny like the stars in the sky, ur lips are so , so , so??? i dunno ur lips lolz.
ok now see this:
and this:
and
Funny laa
got more
lolz my weopan sux man XD. sorry just had to do this
and lolz
and
thats all i'm goin now bye
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Tuesday
Nick chew happy birthday dumb dumb XD!
Hmm, my life is now getting back to normal so thats good. I still miss her alot, watching all those couples in college make me soo jealous haha, Even my Best fren was like teasing me by kissing his gf infront of my. I was like Wat the hell man, i know laa lolz. No comment but *cough cough* cant say name, u sux at kissing. no not u lee en, my best fren haha. Some more through webcam wor....i'm sure when he go off9 , G G ! dunno wat they gonna do lolz.
Hmmm Eve, haha smiled at me today so i guess, she's ok and thats good. Eerrr problems, many moral project, geo project, bahh and many more haha.
Hmm, i guess single is ok la. though i was single for like 3 years then cpl with her, I'm still thinking back of the days we were together. Cried bout it, tears just come out. Hey i'm a korean ok, we cry alot! XD neva see those korean show meh. hahah. well All i wan is to see u happy and continue loving u though ur no longer there, Well i'm such a simple guy Neva ask for alot. ^^ So yeah miss the old Sweet days. *cough cough*
Hmm, thank u derrick for sending me home today, its raining even now While i'm typing its raining. And i dont like politics in college, but no choice have to live with it. Oh and i dunno why my pool so called "PRO SKILLS" karat edi. Sigh soooooo sad! lolz
Well got nothing much to do now, I guess i go Cs or something.
Laterz
Monday, October 8, 2007
Sorry eVe
Eve! so sorry if bala Scold u for my mistakes!
Aiyo i feel so terrible if she kena scolding man! I first time commie, Experience was great, haha they really c an work their ass out.! they all like super man and woman in the kitchen. And very wise and smart, if got not enuf ingredient ask ppl and take lolz. Lots of time manging,team work effort and partnership. So i give all my respect to the seniors in DC23! *tapett*
Well i'm dead tired gonna fall asleep haha, ok bye bye
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Today, during church i was actually having bad headache. Maybe not enough of rest. And I cant believe i cant stop thinking about My break up, what i been through I mean this stuff not suppose to come to my mind edi, It should be washed off. =(
Sigh, Really wish time can fly backwards. Tomorrow i'm commie for Eve, senior in culinary arts, edmond julian simon as well would be there. Dunno who else but its gonna be a surprise if i see whole of DC28 group 1 there haha.
Didn't go for evening service,Having bad headache. I just close my eyes on the bed and feel asleep. Haha felicia, ur rite I menangpun desperado haha. Well, the pain is still there and i dunno how to aid it, maybe finding new GF or just stay loyal and wait for things to happen. This matter all i really dunno how to deal with it, People even my self can easily say " Let go, just let go" But in reality letting go isn't easy, letting something go does not just give in without a fight. I still love her, yes i do no matter what the hell u guys tell me what she is, how she is or w/e i dont care! Maybe i'm stupid/dumb/idiot to keep falling for her, i dont care man. Its my life i choose who i want to love and care for.
I found CS bots!! weee feel so happy lolz. finally can shot something!! die bots die!!
actually i got no idea wat to type edi, whether to write a message or go sleep.
Lee en Girl, my heart is open for u anyday. =) your Ex bf sitting here in front of the computer ready to help u at any time =) just ask and it will be done depending on the situation.
Hmmm i think i said too much, i write sooo much bout u lee en, during our relationship and now after i still write about u. Dunno why maybe i got no topic to write in my blog *slaps head* stupidity XD
Anyway good nite everybody who ever who read this
