Sunday, September 30, 2007

Dont make me angry

Ok! first of all i really wanna put this out LOUD!
Vincent, bro i know u been helping me since before ok, and after my break up. Yes thank u soooo much for cheering me up, telling me wat to do, so i thank u and ur Baby. Ok but 1 thing is 1 thing man, u dunno me. Yes i might be a Coward i might say things, i was angry at her, and i was sad and i was sorry for her BUT DUDE! get a grip, If u know me as well you would understand how i feel man, serious after ur sms today, i feel that Gosh i hav a bro who looked up for me and now his calling me a coward, WTF. Ps.steven sry i swear anyway, WTF vincent i always look up to u and i trusted u, now this is how u think about me, yes maybe i'm not mature in thinking yet, i got to admit i'm still childish, u can soo ask ppl around ok! Gosh, And i swear to God If u come anywhere close between me,lee en or w/e i will start a fight with u, mark my words vince, Now i feel sorry to lose a Fren a bro to me. ish!

Anyway, today Was in a cheerful mode till somebody have to spoil it during lunch time in midvalley with simon jialoong and eer one more dude. Yeah i went to mid valley today, watch movie and eat XD fooood~~~~ yummm
On the way back, i took ktm to central. The amount of people there in the train was like too many, reached central goin out of the train this elderly man reached in to my pocket and somehow was trying to pick pocket my phone, thank God for alertness i saw his hands i grab back my phone and i elbowed him, he was rite behind me so i talked loud " HEY! ANE U WANT MY PHONE SO BADLY IS IT TAKE IT OUT SIDE THE TRAIN LA, WHY HERE WHY TRY SO HARD IN HERE", he kept quiet and ppl was like looking giving him the stare. Went out of the train i wanted to catch him and report him, apparently opposite side train arrived so gam! he ran inside then Poof dunno go where, sigh Nvm la 4giv him idiot desperado. At parade i waited for bus and its like 6.55
then prayers came, the funny thing is ppl want to get onto the bus "rapid KL" *cough cough*
Haha the bus driver arrived he showed the hand stop sign, telling ppl dont come in, he put on the hazed light came down the bus, lock the bus and go eat... XD about 3rapid kl did the same thing on the opposite side, lolz. Then there was so many ppl everybody was talkin about the bus drivers, i heard this conversation "aunties" lolz, lei tai, yi kar bus driving ting yan wor, hei thei emm sake tapau meh, hei tei suma te so lo." i was like laughin lolz..
Well thats all la, not happy now, i hope she is ok..sighz

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Dunno how to express this!

I'm happy, i got my smile i got everything back.
First of all, thank u Darren. U know u are wise, thank u People who was there for me.
Thank u for those who cared for me. Thank u lee En for smiling back at me. I really needed that.
U silly girl, I really miss u so much. And i know that u can see it. ^^
Lee en, no doubt I still luv u. Every time i see u, i just cant stop Falling in luv with u more and more even though wat has just happened.

Remember some time ago, When we were down i told u this "Dear we choose to love ea other"
I guess i now know my own words, and Its our choice for who we are now, its not ur fault neither its mine, coz this is the choice we made, and i guess we have to accept things the way they are now.
Am i rite?? do u agree with me?
I guess I realize what is love now, Its not a must to be with that Special person and together called love, ITS NOT Love is a feelings, no i dont think so. Love is something greater which cant be express, and i guess You can love that somebody eventhough not together or in a far distance, ITs because you choose. And i know I choose to Love u, and i'm gonna keep it, even tough after sometime it would fade, But guess wat silly girl I'm madly deeply in luv with u, and now all i want is to, see ur smile, see u happy, see u living ur everyday life, and that keeps me
happy and keep going on. I'm now the happiest person in the world, and u know why, its because i meet a Very Special person, which is you^^
Thank u.
And for everybody info, we are not together. so no confusion XD

Anyway just came back from Ben ong's moon cake CCSM party XD though there was like Ca ppl here :P

Ok the truth its stuffy, but its really really fun^^ I guess i'm goin mid valley tmrw, with the gang XD college gang. i din eat mooncake just now tough din hav the Feel for mooncake XD
*puppy eyes* the Butter chicken was like *rolls eyes* WOW!
hahah damn its delicious^^ i can taste milk,butter,curry leaf and i think salt since its salty.
Really enjoyed the fellowship, though i was kinda bit angry at first but soon i realize^^ so I'M NOW EMO FREE no more sad no more angry, all neutral and got back my smiling me^^ so happy!!!!!

mmmm I stole chicken, looks ugly actually but yumm!!!!

Thats all good nite^^

Thursday, September 27, 2007

I guess

I guess, i'm kinda ok now, tough i tell many time the feelings for her is still there.
Hmmm, she just replied my sms, i guess she is doing way way better than i am now.
Its good to hear that she is ok, mmmm.
Anyway 2days ago, mooncake party at my house, its for like my mom's partner and staff
I cook Salmon, fried salmon fish XD
hmmm nth much for today, meet John in front of office haha...he din shave O.O" that also i notice XD Weird man me.
Well, g2g now lazy to blog for today tata

Wednesday, September 26, 2007


I guess i'm kinda off the sad mood. But i've been curious,
I wanna know how is she, i wanna talk to her again.
ITs been 4days since we broke up, sigh i dont wanna talk bout it anymore,
i guess whats done is done, i cant make her love me anymore. I dont hav wat it takes.
I'm not fit/meet her needs to be her bf. Bah, i'm still emo. soz

oct 4th resident evil is coming out on cinema, its suppose to be our half year anniversary, I guess it din last. BAH! wat the hell am i still talkin bout her, I guess i still care, still love.

i dunno wats happening to me, kinda having fewer now. Sigh, i dunno wat really to blog anymore.
Well, i guess.... nvm nth to say i'm

Monday, September 24, 2007

Lost smth

I lost my sense of humor , i lost my smile, and my happiness.
Slowly gaining it back, but it's very hard. Knowing u will neva love me again.
So its hard. very. Still emo, and sad dunno how long this going to be
Just wanna know how ur doing, holding my phone scared to sms u
I still got the key chain, I guess its the only thing left for me to remember of u.
I dont want to remove it, it helps me remember the memory.
Anyway this song from s club 7, this is really how i feel. The song is a message from me to U.

S club 7 - neva had a dream come true.
Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time

There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways
to let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be
Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind

There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways
to let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
[Never Had A Dream Come True lyrics on]

Even though I pretend that I moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

You'll always be the dream
That fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby
You'll always be the one I know
I'll never forget

There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye

No no no noo

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be
With you

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Worst day of my Life

I'm heart broken, But lesson in life when you need to let go
Its best to let go early before it get worst.
It is worst for me now, I'm not ready for break up.
Today 23 sept 2007, for 5months 19days Ended up. I'm actually in tears rite now.
I cant believe people can move on so easily.
If u love somebody at the starting, How ever you can stop loving that person
Even though he/she is like annoying or got some problems. Its not possible
Like i said, when u love someone ITS your choice to Love, when u choose that Its your duty
TO commit, to sacrifice, to do w/e it takes to build up and strengthen the Relationship
I still feel it was a waste. Well, sorry for the first few hours, i was really
angry, sad and felt like giving up everything rather than letting u go.
I want to be selfish, i dont think i ever was, Today you hurt me the most and
now its a scar in my life. I will never be the same again, i would never be the Asher who is funny,who cares for people. I dont think i could ever be that anymore, Since u left
now there is a Big hole in my heart. My heart is now empty, all the joy, happiness
everything has left me together with you. I can let u go, but letting the feeling bout you go,
its impossible, that feelings is already nailed to my heart. I cant remove it, nobody can.
I'm now alone, feel so lonely. I just wan you back,but knowing you
I cant get you back and that hurts me so much. Cant stop thinking bout you, the words you send to me, the sms the words you say when i call you earlier, Its gonna haunt me when i sleep, its gonna slowly devouver me. Slowly tearing me apart, till there is no more me. I choose to love you, and I thought i can
Change you, Now i know the only person who can change you, the way you are Its the only person who can be with you. I'm no good, i sucked at becoming somebody's BF, but I try my very best to do the best i can,and it still din work. I made my choice, I created the dream, I prayed over it and now, Its broken to pieces. I planned a date for us, I always wanted a date with you as Bf and Gf, till today it didn't come. I planned a whole day trip, Morning have breakfast at mamak, then go to the beach maybe PD. Have lunch there come back to KL.
Go Sunway pyramid, take you ice skating, eat ice cream, window shopping. Then have a Nice dinner together, then catch a movie. But now, i couldn't make this date to real. Though i so badly wanted, you cant and i understand and accepted it.
You want to know the truth, All this while I was hurt, you never felt it. Everytime i see you, i wish i can know u more, talk to u more be with you more time. I always felt in our relationship there is something missing, I know its different than many normal relationship. But goin through it with u, it took all my hurt and pain away, lookin at u just makes me foget bout the pain.
Now, your gone *pooof* no more, All the pain,all the scars i
ts gonna haunt me. I know i let u go just now with a smile. When vince called me and told me, I realize I was like played, used just for the fun of it, I feel really like someone whom is been punked. I quote from ur blog "i want a relationship that doesn't end up throwing me away like a clothe when its dirty, you just throw it one side" Remember u said that, now looks who throwing who away. I realize i'm a sensitive person as well, i know that. That is what makes me Asher. I always accept for who you are, but now, i cant. Now 'im back in tears, its gonna be tears for a long long time, everytime we gonna look at each other, its going to hurt me so much. I always and only wanted you to know how i felt,wanting you to know who i am. I told u my life secret, now i feel that i only used that so you could still love me and not break. Everything I said and do which try to keep our relationship goin is just poured down the drain. Now i'm not trying to cry over spilled milk.
The feeling towards you will never die, you have my words I will still say to death then only we are tore apart. As long as i'm alive, I'm still gonna love u, care for u and protect you, even If we meet our Beloved in the future get married with family. I will still Love,care and protect you no matter what. Like i said, my feelings towards u is already nailed to my heart, cant be remove.Always will be there. now when i see this picture, I will always remember what we been though the moments of fun happy joyful sadness tough time we been through in this relationship. Wong Lee en, I'm asher will always be Asher who loves u. And i will never stop never ever will stop Loving u and love God my frends and family. I'll be waiting if u or will not come back to me, i will wait till the day comes! Only you can change me, no other.

Though its BLur, I will still remember the way we smile, the way we hold each other, the way we kiss. Can never be forgotten. I'll miss everything we ever did. Going to miss it. *sobs*
Bye Lee en, you take care now. I love u Always.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Today is?? Thursday

Weeeee, yesterday. GUESS WHAT i watched
i Got preview tickets from symantec see this pic.

though its just paper! but i watched it, woohoo i'm gonna spoil it for u guys who read
this, nahh j/k haha its a good movie! must watch.

Anyway lately i hav this crazy-ness for Bleach! really, i first saw the ep 114 or 141 not sure
but its the latest wan. Then i started crazy over bleach. lolz i'm watching in youtube now i'm at EP 12. Hehe ichigo is still weak though :P

Well yeah thats all^^ nite

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

last assessment day

OMG JUST TAKE A LOOK AT ME, with Simon's Blazer soo the yeerrrrr!!! lolz

MY gosh, well is it our last assessment and End of Term1 This means, Holiday!! for 2 weeks, sighz i'm Working though, at amCorp Selling Computer. Kinda workin in my Mom's branch. So if u need COmputer stuff acc, software hardware. Give me a Call, Since i'm like Lady boss son, nahh i just can get you a good price. haha its at the first floor find the escalator the shop is called CMS[it] Retail PJ. Right infront of the escalator. Thats all!!

Good nite!!

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Dc28 Term1

Just received the pictured! Aiyo term end is like leaving high school
Sad giler liau, Feel like wanna cry lolz. anyway here are some picture.

DC28 !! Gonna miss u mr.suhaimi if your not teaching us next term! Your a good lecturer! We all know it haha, though sometimes u sux! but ur still a good Lecturer!

Noodle<<< >>> me

Well, I guess thats it. anyway, i wanna go watch tv now. I still miss the way u call me darling. haha, oh well. I dunno what to do or say. Bah what am i still here?? I'm late for tv show!!
Bye Bye

Friday, September 14, 2007

nooo dont leave us!

MS, SHIUAN!! plz dont leave us T_T we just get to know u in term 1 and ur leaving me!! why?? T_T miss u alot though, cannot kacau u anymore =( dont leave please. Must remember me always ok^^

Yay today! FINAL ASSESSMENT! fuh fuh fuh its over!! now 2 weeks holiday yay!! now can work get monmey go church seek God seek Gf seek Friends and family! day of, can sleep man! finally sleep! hahaha. no more stress no more emo! now i'm a happy bunny :P

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Nth to say

Joke 1 : A man is dying of cancer.
His son asked him " Dad why do u keep telling people that you're dying of AIDS?

Dad replied: " so that when i'm dead no one will dare touch your mom"

Joke 2:
Girl:" when we get married I wanna share all your worries and troubles"

Boy: " Tq darling but i dont have any!!!

Girl: silly, that's because we aren't married yet darling.

Well, dunno whether you people can get it

Wednesday, September 12, 2007


Many things changed, I think.
Many things is now Different,
Many things now can be solved easily,
Many sorrows and Pain,
Many hard moment,
Many self thoughts,
Many things that are loved and hated,
Its just too many.

I decided today's post is poem, maybe this how i wanna express my self using other ppl's poem :

Things I Love About You

Your eyes
which first held me captivated
where I stood.

Your smile
to dazzle the sun
and warm every corner of my soul.

Your voice
like a sparkling mountain stream
which flows into my heart.

Your walk
and the way your gracefulness
takes my breath away.

Your hair
about which I dreamed
cascading into my face
as you leaned over me.

Your hands
whose caress I crave
to hold my face
in their tenderness.

Your arms
I long to have around my neck
as you pull me close
to your warmth.

Most of all
everything you are
changed the way I feel about my life.

I love you.

My Gift To You

I live through my dark existence
only to bask in your beauty
your eyes that shine like sapphires
your smile that brightens even my sad existence
I envy the wind that runs through your hair
that touches your lips
I long to touch you
to hold you in my arms but I cannot
for your heart belongs to another
so, I can only love you from afar
your friendship means more to me
than anything this world provides
but like an angel you touched my heart
in a way that I've never felt before
cause I've never known what love is until this day
I know that we are only friends
but my heart wishes it to be more
so I will still hope and dream
that one day I can feel your lips pressed to mine
to hold you in my arms and say, "I love you"

Slow Tears

I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek

And the last poem is:

Have You Ever

Have you ever felt,
the cold and lifeless hand of an infant,
gazed into their unblinking eyes,
and observed the face of death,
when masked in bittersweet innocence?

Have you ever touched your dreams,
and felt the simplistic joy,
of feeling them become reality,
only to abandon them,
for reasons you cannot explain?

Have you ever watched your family,
who once shared the greatest of loves,
suffer an unforgettable and unforgivable tragedy,
that will slowly, painfully, and inevitably,
tear them all apart?

Do you know, firsthand,
the evil that resides deep within the heart of every man,
every woman, and every child?
Have you seen its face as it randomly seeks,
a soul to torment and destroy?

Do you know the darker side of life,
the one that awakens you,
in the still of the night,
crying to the unknowable God's,
‘Save me from myself. '?

Does your heart constantly question,
whether humanity is obtainable,
in a world corrupted with suffering,
and where war,
is the favoured solution for peace?

If you really want to know me,
and understand the forces that compel me to move on,
then take these questions,
and take this pain,
for this who I am.

Well, i guess thats all. But i wanna try my own poem:
Day by day we live,
Live by day in shallow mallow,
Shallow water means good rite?,
But why are things Are yet not Rite?,

Oh my Tiny small hurt heart,
Why thy hurt?,
I'm hurt for many things,
Things that relates to everybody,

Oh heart oh heart where you gone to?,
I'm still here, always been here,
Here i was beside you,
But now I'm aside you,
Now i seek help,
Yet help cant seek me,
Oh heart oh heart what to do?,
Well heart the only words are,
I dont know =(

-The end-

there i tried, now i g2g bye

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Random ness

Well, I'm not in a Good mood lately so Please wait for my mood to chill down, sorry to those i simply get pissed with. Anyway, Really miss darlin, but sighz nvm^^
Anyway i got this off from some talented people who Sorta Love so Called "Drawing"
Here are some of the pic:

Oh yeah Remember for some people i told proton persona has 2 fuel tank indicator? Here's the pictures:

Well yeah, and here's a Joke from Great old Uncle Peter..XD
A man came to visit his grandparents, and he noticed

his grandfather sitting on the porch, in the rocking
chair, wearing only a shirt, with nothing on from
the waist down.

"Grandpa, what are you doing? Your weenie is out in
the wind for everyone to see!" he exclaimed.

The old man looked off in the distance without

"Grandpa, what are you doing sitting out here with
nothing on below the waist?" he asked again.

The old man slowly looked at him and said,

"Well...last week I sat out here with no shirt on,
and I got a stiff neck.

This is your grandma's idea!!!"

haha. Well i guess thats all for Tonight! Nite folks!
PS: lovE You Darling! Miss u Lots^^

Monday, September 10, 2007


Well, actually my last post suppose to have lots of stuff, Sorry i was emo. Had lots to say.
Anyway today is monday, so i had to go to work. AMcorp now kinda sux, not many customer . Today i only like open 2 bills and i work like 11am? till like 8pm. Sighz, Got home. ate dinner, sms lee en, simon called played computer. Oh study for exams!

Gosh its exam weeks, then i will have my term break, anybody wanna go out? end of this month is my term break. Anyway, uncle peter send me jokes all the time, i guess , well its not prorate but what the heck, i will share it to the world lolz...anyway it is a joke rite?

Here it goes:

in Australia,
A woman was
Admitted to hospital
after purportedly
having phone sex.
Doctors removed 2
and a Samsung.
But no Siemen was found

Well, yeah, for those who get it keep it to ur self hehe.
Well anyway, there lots of stuff stil goin on in my head, i'm very stressed out. well problem is always problem, Just waiting for my storm to over and catch my rainbow.
Anyway i'm gonna sleep now. Nite people!

Saturday, September 8, 2007

Never be the Same Again

todays post is canceled

I'm in Depression Thoughts

Hate being sad and emo. Just hate it
!!! nothing to say and no comment.

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

5months And still goin^^


haha, Yeah 5 months edi, how time flies. Well Term1 in college is goin to end, term2 is coming in 1 week or 2 is the Final exams! GOSH hate exams, but the whole part about life is exams. Sighz, i hope i do well this time. Anyway I got nothing to do!! haha, usually i'll be chatting watching tv reading cook book or sleeping but for now, I'm like stoning in front of my computer. Still I'm now doing something rite, blogging haha! :P

Well anyway today went college, eat lunch with andy. Played pool, Hehe at times i'm quite good and most of the time bad! haha. Lol, Well i guess now got nothing much,i better go find something to do bye!

Saturday, September 1, 2007


Thats all for tonite good nite!