Wednesday, December 31, 2008

before 2009

Well before 2009 comes!! things i must say... things i must tell...

First of all pic...

This is my causie.. from brother and dad. went there..she was thinner =.= haha but still pretty ^^ i know why its winter they eat more i guess to keep warm haha XD

First of all: Sorry
IM sorry to everybody..If i have been a jack ass... loser... a bad friend..too much of a flirt..and to a mui whom i love sorry for what i done, I just wanted to treat u more than a Fake brother..i wantd to be a real brother to u, sorry...Sorry if i disbehave..sorry if i shouted at anyone..sorry if i hurt ur feeling if i tease you too much.. Everybody im sorry from the deep deep deepest down in my heart...and im honest.. really i am sorry..lets put it all to a past and leave it all behind in 2008.. mui..or carmen...i hope we still can be friends or brother sister =(

I wanna say thank you to everybody!! =}
Thank you for being there for me,
Thank you for being my friend,
Thank you for taking care of me,
Thank you for giving me Things,
Thank you for the Friendship we have,
Thank you for Everything ^^
Thanks guys and Girls of coz.. for a wonderful 2008..
I meet, I get, I gone through alot alot of things, it helped me to change alot, 2009 would be a big change in my life. Things that i promise my self that i would stop doing, things that im gonnna work hard for. Im Bless with everything..and i wanna thank God for giving me a blessed 2008.. and i hope 2009 would be a better one.

As all the people who are born in 1989! wooho :P We are all growing up. We are no longer gonna be teens anymore.. we are going to be 20!! Young adult =D
So as part of growing up, i wanna be matured, in everything. Thinking acting playin all.. Try my best...And F**** the rest hahaha... sakae sushi..MOTO!! created by : Park, sunny, norman, bong, ahlong.

Third and final:
Next year resolutions:
1. Stop..a bad habbit
2. Study hard.
3. Find a Gf =.= [ see how ]
4. Find a good job once grad
5. grow up and mature.
6. Less FLIRTING! 100% sure, coz it sucks when someone hates you for that.
7.Try to get my own car
8. Get back all my friends that i was bad to..
9. To be a Better man.

Lastly i wanted to say this, To the girl i know, i love, happy new year. Soon our friendship as friends will reach 1year.. since the day i meet u till now its gonna be 1year edi haha ^^Be a good girl..

I just wanna be me! My rules, our love life, one hand, together all one heart!!

Happy new year!!! 2009 HERE I COME BABY!!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

What is it...

What the thing thats keep me going...
I am who i am, i go by my own rules.
I like to , Think..
Thinking helps alot.. But thinking of only 1 matter is like... Thinking of A,
But the thing is... there is Item B and C that usually many or alot of people dont notice it.
When people are sad... Things usually go.. Why this happen to me.? Why am i so unlucky.? Why doesn't she/he likes me.. why he/she hates me?
For me.. yes i admit ill think of that A to..why this why that..why me..why.why..why... But as i said thinking is nice... I think of..u know if this happen to me, whats the benefit, of me and her?? I keep saying to my self, If i continue emo-ing.. how would the other person feel... simple..its either they feel bad..or they think bout u... worst =.=
I dont know...its the way i think that keep me going on... I just got Re***ted.. Fine i am very sad bout it...almost a year i like this girl.. All i wanted is just us to be together, I don like to prison my Gf's i like to keep it free, Its the i trust u thing.. and u trust me.. but don go over the limit.. I dont mind that type of relationship where.. go out less, meet less, or anything.. for me..thats makes u happy and makes me happy that all matters. Why must one person jail his Gf? it gets so stuffy, stuck up, and wont last long... aT least when meet less, go out less, but still together, can really appreciate the time when we are together. I dont know why i wanted to type this out... maybe its becoz i want someone to read it, But...hmm i need go think more and more again..

I emo-ed while working, everyone could see it. I wasn't cured from the effects yet. But after awhile, while emo-ing and not many custermors I think, Ppl would talk bad bout me, and whats the point of emo-ing when whats done is already done.. So, have to go back my normal self.. I have no regrets. I still like her, i still love her and.. Will do anything for her... Even die..give all my money...clothes what ever.. MY life belongs to her..its up to her to keep it..break it... throw it..used it...anything...I just want to see her smiling, and always be close to me...coz i dont wanna lose, A girl like her...

Tied up from work, i wanted to like... go eat CRAB!!! with my mom..and her staff and partners on new year eve... But i have to work..leaving my poor dog at food... SAD!!! Shift starts at 1..finish 10..i think i would need to rush home..and settle house hold stuffs..

Eh...i want to play RO!! yes RagnaRok Online!! again... aww i missed it... kinda forgoten how to make my own server... who got the latest cd... give me..or donate =.= i wanna play ro Again soo badly...tired of dota-ing... Sigh...

Thanks mui and her bf nick..sending me home today!1 and had a great time eating and drinking..and playing cards with JOE...and dammit..he always win it all... DAM DAM DAM DAM... oh well..

Saturday, December 27, 2008

a Sunday morning

난 사랑에 빠진 소녀와 함께 해요.
하지만 난 깨진 느낌

J'espère que vous apprécierez les nouilles aujourd'hui, c'est parce que vous ne mangez pas le riz, je vous ai donné hier.


I'll grow better in time.."nekorb treah"

I just love cosplay

I just love to see ppl cosplay...make me wanna try it too haha..but malaysia..sigh..
the amount of money they spend just for a costume
..I wanna cosplay T_T
If i get a chance..i wanna try ^.^

i'll never regret loving u
No matter how long..i still love u..
Sarangheo "i love you"

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Xmas~~!! babyy

Merry Christmas! too all mahh dahlings ^^

Just came back from work.. Tired, even though i started work at 5.50pm XD
This morning i send my dad and younger brother to i had to wake up like giler early. Drive the car to and back.. I dont like big cars but big cars has lots of power ^.^

im kinda disappointed, kinda forgot to tell fahmi that today i cant work eventhough yesterday i told him that i could work today.. I wanted spend some time with mom this xmas, but sadly i rushed to work..coz there was like lack of staff.

When i arrived Gosh it was busy =.= today we hit our target! we broke the old record few days ago rm1500 today!! we reached rm1950!! almost 2k..but that time was already like sweep mop everything..

Teman piggy to ktm, scared smth happen to her i dont wan that to happen rite *wink wink*

No need to ommit,
Just have ea other, be very close
and most important...always have fun and always be happy thats
all We need..

I love you, and i hopt you would love me too =S

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

So many people gonna say that they want you,
To try to get you thinking they really care,
But there's nothing like the warmth of the one
who has put in the time and you know is gonna be there,
Back your border when she knows someone crossed it,
Don't let nobody put you down, who your with
Take the pain of protecting your name,
from the crutch to the cane to the highwire

I'm in love with a girl who knows me better,
Fell for the woman just when I met her,
Took my sweet time when I was bitter,
Someone understands,
And she knows how to treat a fella right,
Give me that feeling every night,
Wants to make love when I wanna fight,
Now someone understand me,
I'm in love with a girl (I'm in love with) [x2]

After many broken backdoors and windows,
Through the valley of the love of the lost,
Is a hole that is cut through the souls falling down
from the thrones without any innuendos,
But you drown in a piece for the moment,
The moment was over in time,
Then its gone the hit and run the guiltless one has a short life

I'm in love with a girl who knows me better,
Fell for the woman just when I met her,

Took my sweet time when I was bitter,
Someone understands,
And she knows how to treat a fella right,
Give me that feeling every night,
Wants to make love when I wanna fight,
Now someone understand me,
I'm in love with a girl (I'm in love with) [x2]

Gonna tell you what you do to think you practice what you preach,
Now I know there's nothing we can't reach,
'cause the heart can't erase once it finds a place to be warm and welcome,
To be held in shelter

I'm in love with a girl who knows me better,
Fell for the woman just when I met her
Took my sweet time when I was bitter
Someone understands,
And she knows how to treat a fella right
Give me that feeling every night
Wants to make love when I wanna fight
Now someone understands me
I'm in love with a girl (I'm in love with) [x3]
Who knows me better
Wants to make love when I wanna fight
now someone understand me

Im in love with that girl.
I officially lost 11kg!! im 79kg now Happy-ness!!!!.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

What's a blog..??

-its something that a person cannot express their feelings by words so they type it out instead.
-Its when an emotion runs through and there is no body to talk to, write it out so ppl can read it.

For me, Blog is where my feelings are. blogging is like an insult, when u cant tell a person straight to their face that u hate then or you love them or w/e. I remembered when we had this conversation between me, derrick, aiman, david and joseph. And aiman pointed out some true facts, when u dont dare tell someone in the face,k u just type it out and figure that no one would ever read it.. its when someone cant release thier emotions. I dont know why i use my blog like an excuse to talk bad bout someone, but i actually dont really ment it, Piggy she is a nice girl, but the way i type bout her its like insulting her, and i find that is wrong. I love her, and all i want is for her to love me back, which i know it might be imposibble. I wanna blog, write bout my life coz its boring and only a few people would read how i feel. and JEEZ i surely dont want my parents to read it, they would like blow up at me. So back to my point When time is hard, i will blog. and ill blog bout my hard times, but when i read it back again...its like talking bad about the people i love..

then blablabla.....

I feel like an idiot writing this now =.=

Well anyhow im going to work soon...again ~.~ many ppl say " wei asher take holiday la...what for work so fast" And i will always and continue to say this " My holidays are screwed up... stay at sleep computer and get fatter -.- i rather go work lose some weight and be expose to the outside world more"

Where im working? " Desserts bar again =) " i like that place. Not becoz of smth but i dont know why i have that feel to go back there and work...but i wont go back to sakae sushi...maybe coz the kitchen boss are jack-asses XD
Well they are... long story but i shall write it down in my next i hav to dry my hair...its getting longer...and im lazy to cut my hair hahaha :P

Life Sux!

Yeah i know....everybody says it too " Life sux!! "
well it does...even for the one who has everything... and even worst for those who dont have everything and even worst for those who wants something but can never get..

I hate my family...keep complaining bout me...look i did my best to find a part time job so i can lift up some burden of taking their money...and...keep saying i would fail as a chef just coz i dont cook at home... I do just that YOU WERE NEVER THERE TO EAT!!

Sigh... I love someone...but i dont know if it could happen.. I try so hard..yet not succeed. its almost a year now..whats bothering me is..i keep helping her, give her this that...being nice..and we are close..and i can feel it..but..i dont know why, its just now happening.. its not like "others"
I was so happy to see her again, and after today..i feel like i dont wanna see her... weird..its really weird..

i hate holidays. I usually spend time at home...playing computer or eating or sleeping or just cock stare in the ceiling.. i hate it =.=
I rather go work..and thank god im working but my mom..keeps complaining again!!! bahh...i wanna MOVE out of here!!! HELPPP MEE!!!
Get rid of this pain im going through...hold with me..
most me.... I'm Lonely =(

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Training ended... Great work..bad place to work..

Now...nice place to work...nice girl to love ^^

and yes i love u ^^

Monday, December 15, 2008

no mood for blogging...maybe continue next time...

- Temporary Unavaliable -
Officially Closed for weeks.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Not around

I wont be around for a couple of days...going for my holiday..and damn...i haven pack..and i have to leave like in 6hours time =.=

Off to where?? thailand!! yeah... piggy...dont worry porkie will be home..i promise! ^.^

Anyway have a great time...taking lots of pic..with my new camera! Canon ixus..i know its old modal but its new! .. have fun shopping new clothes and all.. dun worry ill bring things back.. bye

Tuesday, December 2, 2008